A Lost Princess

It's been 5 years and a half since I graduated and I still don't have a permanent job. One thing that happened is I lost my self-confidence. I can't present myself and make friends the way I used to and it's sad. I've lost friends and lovers along the way. The question I had was, "Is this really my life?" Deep in my heart I knew this isn't.

In my search for happiness, I've let go of the only one thing I need to have fulfillment in life. I've lost my intimacy with God. I don't wanna blame the devil but I can say that he is winning me over.

The reason I'm saying this is I saw a Christian comedian on Youtube and his story resonated with me. He was doing everything he could but there's no fulfillment. He wasn't happy.

I know what I need. I need God. I need to feel Him again. I need to attend Services and Bible studies. I need God. I am nothing without Him.